We are allowed to feel the pain, to feel depressed.
In my mind, I know and I trust it will happen when is the right moment... but I guess is just normal to feel like this.
We have been trying just for 6 months, and when I see the “not pregnant” result, I feel instantly how a small world inside me, crumbles. And I feel sad in my heart, it hurts... one feels worthless, incomplete, unable to, and I think “perhaps I am not ready yet”, “perhaps I am not mommy material”... perhaps. And then my full body aches. I give myself permission to be depressed... just for a day, just today. I am allowed to suffer, to cry the loss of something I didn’t get to have this month... it’s ok, just cry for today.
Tomorrow a new story will begin. I will start fresh, ready for it all. Full hearted. Complete. A new opportunity will comence and I will be ready for it.
To all the woman that have been trying for a month or for years... for those looking for a miracle to happen, I salute you. We are not alone. Our day will come. When the time is right...
One day at a time. Un día a la vez.
