I can´t remember when I was sad the last time. That has to
be good, right? :D
We sometimes get used to being sad or to have a plain and
boring life, which is not wrong (we are free to choose how we want to live the
life we are given)… about me? I have dedicated the last years of my life to
fight each and every single day to be the person I want to be. This fight,
which will never end until the day I die, has had positive results so far…
Today I am thankful for what I had experienced the last 28
years of my life, for they have made me who I am today… but I am especially
thankful (and proud!) for the last year and a half. When I realized my life was
not what I expected it to be, back in 2013, I made dramatic changes and almost
felt like I was starting from scratch. I was trying to remember who I was, what
I wanted from life and from the people around me… I started wondering about the
things that truly made me happy, remembering my values and, who I truly was.
This exercise was incredibly good… I did it all, all over again: dancing,
painting, running, writing, traveling, reading, praying, walking, being on my
own, being with complete strangers, being with my family, being with God… When
I think of why is it that I can´t even remember the last time I was sad, all I
can think of is that I was way too busy looking for happiness that I forgot
what sadness looked like.
Exploring the world, its people, its places and activities,
has given me happiness, peace of mind and a sense of being complete. Every
activity I started, helped me find a small piece of who I am... Here are some of the things and gifts I found through each
of the things I did to find myself and build my own happiness:
1. Through
drawing and painting lessons, I learned that not everything is about being
quick and efficient. Painting is an art that takes time, appreciation, attention
to details and specially, it requires a soft side of you to be purely exposed…
when you paint, you need to feel every movement of your hand and every emotion
needs to be connected to your fingers and its fibers. I learned to be soft,
gentle, and to observe…
2. Through
dancing, I found the importance of self confidence… you need to believe in
yourself! Someone who dances, say flamenco, without confidence, passion or fire
will look just ridiculous! You need those elements to bring the dancing to
life! And guess what? You need those elements to LIVE and ENJOY life!
3. Through
writing, I learned to put out there all the emotions, sensations, feelings,
moments and memories. When I write not only I organize my ideas, but sometimes
I let the past go. In other instances, I write to make an emotion or a memory
last forever… every time I read what I write, I reframe myself.
4. Through
running, I prove myself that I can be better than what I think I am. I prove
myself that there are no limits when you dedicate yourself fully to something.
When you try, try and keep trying (training), you can only get better and
better. Running for me is like living… at the beginning you can´t run 1 Km
without feeling pain or getting injured badly, but once you start practicing
and you learn the way, you just get better and faster! When I run I feel
limitless and I know I can accomplish anything I want.
5. Through
singing, I only scare people haha but who cares, it makes me happy… when I sing
I feel every word and emotion of a particular song... Music takes me to a place
of magic. When I sing, especially to God, I feel Him with me and I find that
this can be a moment for us two…
6. Through
travelling, I have learned to be open, tolerant and appreciative of what I have
and humble about what I lack. When I travel, I meet incredible people who show
me there´s a world out there, waiting for us! I have learned that I need to
remain with my heart and mind open to see and perceive the greatness of this
world and what it has to offer, such as beautiful and incredible people and
amazing places! When I travel, I practice my true self and I let myself be… the
more I practice it, the more real it becomes and the easier it gets to be who I
am in my real world.
7. Through
being with complete strangers, I learned that we all have a story to tell. The
life we are given, which sometimes seems to be “hard”, turns out to be full of
stars and joy when you learn from others´ journeys. When you listen, when you
see and feel others, the doors of appreciation, understanding and care are
opened. Every time you get to know a new person and actually open your heart to
that individual (just for the sake of being human), you learn to love a bit
more.
8. Through
being with the ones I love (friends, family, coworkers), I have learned that
there´s beautiful people who truly knows me and my heart… who are and will
always be with me. True friends and family, lift you up. True friends and
family, fill your heart with love and hope when your imperfect self becomes
weak. They teach you how to love, to be thankful and to care…
9. Through
praying I connect with God and any possible pain is healed… When I pray, God
reminds me I am not alone and that there´s a plan being worked out for me… When
I am alone, with God and his infinite love, I remember why it is all worth it.
Being today here with Him, gives me hope and strength for a better and even
happier future. When I close my eyes, I close them to the promise of a joyful
tomorrow.
I am thankful for my past, for it has made me who I am.
I am thankful for my present, for it is full of blessings
and happiness.
I am hopeful of the future, for it is full of opportunities
to be the best I can be.
Thank you to those who have joined me in the journey of
life… may God grant me time on earth to keep
fighting each and every day for my own happiness, and for the construction
of a world on which love is the only rule.
Live. Love. Explore. Be thankful. Have courage.
A happy moment at the Golden Gate <3 15.11.14
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